Gosh, you so nice…

17 01 2014

I shouldn’t ever be surprised any more at how nice, and generous, and kind the infertility community is… heartbreaking when you not only wish your body worked for yourself, but also so you could help someone else!  And so many lovely ladies have written telling me they would GC for me if only they could.  And it means the world to me.  Thank you SO MUCH.

One tiny peep of irritation… so many people are pregnant.  People for whom I am DELIRIOUSLY happy (like my friend Katie who got prego on her third IVF and Pam who had to go the DE route and is 33 weeks) and people I don’t even know (like every.single.frickin.woman.in.the.grocery.store.ever. And in the elevator.  And the post office. And.. and.. and..)

That’s okay.  Rocky times at home, arguments, mostly my fault, mostly having nothing to do with infertility.  Super pressured at work.  Lots of deaths in our family.  Money issues.  I think we’d divorce if we weren’t so upside down on the house, if it wouldn’t upset his family, if we hadn’t already put in nine years and we’d resent thinking it was a waste.  So not a good time to have a baby, anyway.  He even says “even if we don’t get divorced, we shouldn’t have a baby.”  So frustrating.

Thanks for listening ladies.




4 responses

17 01 2014

Sorry to hear things are rough at home….that’s frustrating. Another blogger recently wrote about the Relationship Challenge, they send you 1 free email a day for 21 straight days of little/easy/free things you can try to help improve your relationship (that even apply if you already have a great relationship)……might be something you’d want to check into? I actually just signed up today, it couldn’t hurt! http://www.gretchenrubin.com/21-day-relationship-challenge/

17 01 2014

Thank you so much… I signed up! it can’t hurt 🙂

17 01 2014

I’m so sorry to hear that things have been rough for you, I’m sure you don’t need all of that on top of the infertility stuff. Hoping things will start looking up, thinking of you.

20 02 2014

We’ve had so many struggles in our relationship, too. I tend to think a lot of them, though they seem unrelated, are borne of the hostility, bitterness, loss, and resentment the infertility situation has caused in our lives. I keep trying, because, well, I don’t need my partner’s help. I get my male contribution shipped to me each month- but I have certainly had times, and still do – that continuing to try is against my better judgment because I can’t see how we aren’t going to be divorced. But, it doesn’t matter because I want the baby either way….even though that’s not likely…. I hope things are improving for you.

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